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Does that make me Different?I wear make up. Does that make me fake?
I cry. Does that make me emo?
I have male friends. Does that make me slutty?
I smile a lot. Does that make me weird?
I laugh loud. Does that make me preppy?
I have anxiety. Does that make me a freak?
I have Bipolar Disorder. Does that make me abnormal?
I respect people. I change for me, and only me. I have a past, but I know I have a future.
Does that make me different?
Maybe.
But at least it makes me
Me.

FrostbiteNumbness
I can’t feel my toes and at first I think
It’s just my toes.
I can cover them up.
I can warm them.

It spreads, like fire,
Like ice.
I glance away for a second, it seems, and my feet are cold
Pat –pat
That’s funny, I didn’t feel that
Maybe I’ll cover them up too
I’ll warm them up.

I’ll take a nap
Maybe a short rest will make it all better, warm them
Up…
What’s that? How long has it been?
My legs… are you still mine..
Why has my breath left me, short?
Has everything but deserted me?

What about you, are you still here?
Are you still with me?
Hello?
And before I can say goodbye, I think my thoughts are leaving me too –

You'll Never Understand...You'll never understand...
But I'm glad you don't.
Because that would mean
You'd have to go through my pain.
And I'd never wish that
For you.

Dear fucked society,Dear fucked up society,
Why do you take our rights?
Our human rights?
To who we love?
To who we are.. To our image?
Tell me.

You force images down our throat;
Images of airbrushed, false looking
people. You want people to look
more skinny and cause anorexia,
More along the hidden line that
you dig under the ground like
a dead forgotten body yet always there

You show us that its not right to be gay,
lesbian, bi-sexual or transgendered..
And then wonder why the suicide rate is
so fucking high. You cause the nightmares
and terrors of our family not accepting us
our

Telling Childhood Goodnight.They were the fearless whispers through the starless night.
They were the pounding feet through the cobbled streets,
Screaming out for everything.
They were the fleeting memories of a time long gone by,
Blown away in the wind to a far away sky,
Where the air is cold and the stars never shine.

Memories leave their traces behind,
The scars on my legs from a day long gone by.
I was climbing a rock,
That would forever leave me with a flaw.

They were the youthful cries, screaming out.
They were the glowing eyes, on a fearless march,
Racing down the cobbled streets, blazing out for all to see.
The beacon of light that is now dying out,
I never wanted it to go away.
Everything is changing at a speed I can’t match,
I am drifting further every day.

It makes me want to cry that the best and worst days of my life,
Are being pushed away with every day that passes by.
I want to hold on
But each day I lose more ground.
Soon they will be gone without even a sound.

Th

Sleeping Beautyshe’s in love with a character who
never existed but in the labyrinth of her head:
a patchwork composition of beautiful, lengthy words
she’d heard in her catatonic state; coma living
day in and day out, reliant on the salvation
of a man made of foreign wishing
and imperfection and necessity – an ignorance
of the less than ideal perception of self she’d
come to fear, absention stained romantic to the point
where daydreams were a standard for survival

(real living is for the purposeful of heart,
he loves her in her sleep)

Silent and GoneAlong the blue streams of those who were simplistically glassed, I drag my wooden, empty coffin; it contains only my past.

For the many decades I've lengthened have expanded pain's time; across shallow mountains and beatings I prepare my final climb.

Through harsh mists and soft grasses the journey trembles on; days on end without my voices; alas, I realize they are gone.

Near all abandonment's shelter I rest without ease; my halved demon appears before me; she speaks hellishly in the breeze.

Forgiveness and hallucination she crisply burns in my eyes; I must awaken and continue, 'tis my time to remain wise.

To a judging stream near the g

I don't fight fair...Cut, bruised, scraped, forgotten. These things I have all been at least once in my life. But it
hasn't made me stronger, just more determined in my fight to live another day.
I know the ways of my attackers, studied their movements, learned their tricks and gleamed
their true motives. I have seen their weaknesses, their faults, theirs flaws and I have kept
them close to me, ready for use when the next time we meet.
They are cautious of me, they have weary from my adaptive ways, knowing that I can fall only
so many times. They are scared for I have the key to their defeat; not by sane ways, but by
the ways they fear to tread.
One look, one stare, one gesture and they will run in fear for the truth is upon them: "I won't
live restrained anymore."
"I have seen your errors an played on them like strings on a violin. Moved you to place were I
make the rules. Put you on display for all to see what you have done, and what will be done."

You ha

UneditedWe cry.
We scream.
We fight for our dream.

We scream.
We cry.
We're just waiting to die.

The same emotions
with a different drive.
Sometimes dead, sometimes alive.

The same in one way,
different in another
brother and sister, sister and brother.

So close in feeling,
so different in the end.
Falling apart, or finally on the mend?

Which am I?
Will I ever know?
Fighting to stay or ready to go?

Maybe I'm both,
in some impossible way.
Emotions oddly mixed everyday.

Wouldn't surprise.
I'm such a freak.
Excuse me, I laugh, I should call it "unique"

Happily AloneHonesty,
She does not have,
Personalities,
She has many of them.

A million shields,
a million personalities,
She's always changing,
to fit every person around her.

If one were to ask why,
she would answer with,
I will never reveal my weaknesses,
because she's evil.

She hates everyone,
stupider than her is barely tolerable,
smarter than her is too scary,
She hates it all.

She leaves the world behind,
To one she has dreamt of,
No color,
nobody else.

Then,
she will smile,
why,
because she is truly happy alone.

She is not evil,
She does not hate you,
She is not dishonest,
She simply wants to be alone.

lifelinesI fear the sound of sparrows
and the density of leaves
against dew-muffled blades
of grass,

and I'm drowning
in the sky.

My skin has learned how
to peel itself off
without causing a commotion
in my marrows or
even show the slightest hint
of pain,
and my heart has learned how
to hush the stars in their wake
and keep it all a secret.

There's a sea in my mouth
and I can't swim.

There are lifelines
cast like these and it will
all end with the same tragedy.

the carbon footprint of an arsonistyour crystal promise
rings drip off your glacial
fingers into global

nothings. the geodesic
dome you used to live in
is a hell you keep

clean-shaven and concentric,
spiraling away from you,
wrapping your unborn

children up in paper goblets.
for minimum wage, any geryon
would cling to the terza rima

inkblots on your
collarbones, his spongy molars
diving into your right

angles, his familiar laughs
killing your skin with
shivering cuddles and you

shudder, being self-diagnosed
at center of the universe,
your hair a nest of radio

waves, the one cosmic
principle drumming on the ancient
heart of mystery.

but amateur porn always
made you cry

The WaitingBones hang from trees
Hollow windchimes rattling
In the sullen breeze

Dark clouds make noonday dusk
Rusted buttons on threadbare coats
Sorrow drips like rain

(From the fingertips of this dead-rose day)

Hoofprints kill the grass
Where the dark horse steps
The rider unsmiling

The tired and ill amble about
Cattle awaiting the shoulder tap
To sleep, but not to dream

(To become whatever the second birth dictates)

of seafoam thronesFrom Atlas’ hands she wept to me,
atop Africas and South Atlantics;

this is one situation unaffected by
ember eyes and windy lashes
(it has no anatomy).

You are sparrows stranded
in tiny crevices and cliffside love,
though you rebuke flight
in the fear of chipping feathers.

So what do you do?

You reach for my soul,
coveting flight with shaking
dainty arms…

and perhaps I’ll let you:
With flytrap lips and
glass shaped hips…
you are unfit for anything but
sight.

(But beauty isn’t everything)

A Charmed LifeDoll-faced men and sinkholes, ancient tombstones
Leaves piled ankle-deep, falling down
Old wells, old graves, old friends lost
Pirate adventures in Neverland
Don't go into that barn

Ponchoboy and Rangergirl rise from the ashes
From the cold river, from afar
Remember before they were born, how they
Held hands and jumped into the world
Don't go into that school

Ladybugs, pennies, notes from the dead sun eclipse
Scrape the inside of your skull for clues
All the old dreams are still there, petrified
You are a rock of ages gibbering
Don't go into that factory

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He said: 'You don't wanna know what is there.'
He lives in endless pain every day,
I can't do anything-I wish i could help.
So much pain for that young kid,
I would do anything, if it helps a little bit.
He helps me, with my problems, worries.
He does understand me in every single thing.
He understands everything,
But there's just one thing
He never understood.
It's love...
He's never been loved,
He doesn't understand this word.
He never felt this strong emotion...
He wants to die for someone who deserves it,
But i never wanted his death-I don't want him to quit.
We can't touch, he's too far,
And noone understands who we really are.
I want to hug him so hard,
Talk with him all night..
We've known each other just for few days,
But i feel he's like noone else.
I want to see him smiling,
Read the story of us-which is never-ending.
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For Charlie |2|She lays in her bed
And stars are above her head.
It´s cold outside,
So she is cudling with her bed,
To feel warm and safe.
The moon shines bright,
Little light, in the night.
And she is looking at him
From her magical window,
Like a little cute black widow.

For Charlie |1|For Charlie :]
No one understands...
She said...
That girl...
She wasn´t very popular,
But she had friends and family
Her blue eyes shine,
Like the stars in the sky
Isnside an infinite crowd...
But she isn´t rude,
She is just really nice,
Beautifull angel inside the dark.
Family and friends can´t understand...
But then with a little luck...
She met a weird boy
That is psycho as fuck,
But she still likes him tho
That weirdo...
And he likes her too...
Because he can understand ,
How she feels and listen,
So he can help...
And he will...
As much as he can,
To make her happier...
Then before...
That beautifull angel can´t fly,
Because it´s too dark outside...
She is worried...
But I believe her, in her...
That she can do big things
Everything she wants to...
Maybe she does have broken heart
Little pieces in the ground...
But don´t wory...
Some day...
Some one...
Will find you
And he will change everything...
She will grab your broken heart
So he could st

LaughYou were all laughing...
On my sufering...
You were all mocking me...
You were all saying...
"You are useless"
"You are only a burden"
"You dong belong here"
"You are a bastard"
"Go away"
You were all laughing...
But now...
I´m the one laughing...
On your dead bodies...
When you were begging for your life...
You are all dead now...
I´ve killed you all...
And now...I´m the one who´s laughing

DeathDeath...
Such a sweet word...
Death...
I wish I could die...
...Nothing...
No people...
No pain...
No feelings...
...Nothing...
Death...
Such a sweet word...

I amI am a bird that can´t fly...a fish that can´t swim...I am a human staring into darkness

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by ~BlueWolfSam, Feb 13, 2013, 9:20:26 AM
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I hate...

I hate myself

I hate how I breathe

I hate how I talk

I hate how I walk

I hate how I think

I hate that I´m such an idiot

I hate that voice in my head

I hate that I´ m so sad

I hate my fake smile while I´m dying inside

I hate how I´m hurt

I hate how I´m so empty

...

I wonder if I have a soul or heart...

How they look like if they exist?

How can they be still alive? ...maybe they are dead so as me...inside...pain

I hate myself so much you wouldn´t believe...

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Just something about me that no one can see C:

~authorofthings Feb 14, 2013

i once went through this phase where i just hate myself. i got out of it when i just stop caring about things. so yeah. hope you find a better way or i don't know, something

~BlueWolfSam Feb 14, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

I must say that I really hate myself really much but hate doesn´t do anything to me, it doesn´t make me feel bad or good just same as always ^^

~authorofthings Feb 14, 2013

haha, yeah...

~BlueWolfSam Feb 14, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

~Kinglorshi Feb 13, 2013 Student Writer

Hmmm.

If you are having troubles, then make an effort to make it clear.

Do not let it worsen and all fall apart and say, you should have noticed, or something.

Writing poems online will not help you get over your hatred for yourself.
And yes, yes this is a depression.

~BlueWolfSam Feb 13, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

if it was so easy to do something...you don´t know what I did to make me feel better about myself...oh...so you know my feels about writting?...hmm maybe it helps me what you know

mm yes maybe it is a depression...every day...if it is depression then I were years in depression ;]

~BlueWolfSam Feb 13, 2013 Hobbyist Writer

a...a-amazing? my work? don´t think so...

~liglaglon Feb 13, 2013 Artist

wow.... this is just....well, i don't think there is an accurate word for this just yet so i'll settle for amazing...

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